I suck. BLAAARGH. Remember when I said I don't want this eating malarkey to interfere with my social experiences with my friends? Well G and M wanted to go to G's for dinner and make pasta, so I went with, but OH DEAR. Pasta. With cheese. And then cookies. Could anything be worse? I went to the gym after but was feeling so bloated and horrible that I really wasn't feeling it. And then we got back and I was watching a film with A... and I wanted to keep eating. So I had a bowl of cereal.DOH!
I feel embarrassed to tell you lot but I want to be 100% honest. This is the SECOND NIGHT I've eaten past 4pm and it's been fairly shitty food. This canNOT become a habit. Today I'm liquid fasting and I'll probably wait until Sunday to weigh myself.
I went to see the new Resident Evil yesterday with A... that film has so much thinspo in it! Milla Jovovich's body looked HOT, for one, then there was Ali Larter and another girl who was British and gorgeous... damn. I need to up the game if I want to look like them.
Freshers Week starts technically on Saturday. I did say I wanted to be 9 stone by then, but I think I'm still a few pounds over. I doubt I'll be about 4 pounds less in a couple of days, but hey, at least I'm close. And I'm still desperate to be 8 and a half stone by Halloween! Though I have no idea what I'm going as, yet... I did want to go as Miss Scarlett from Cluedo and wear a tight red dress (hence wanting to be skinny), red heels, red lipstick, etc. and then attach various murder weapons to myself. That could be a lot of effort, though. Damn, MOST Halloween costumes are far too much effort!
What are you going as?
Oh, big shoutout to AAOS... she's going through a scary time and I want her to know we all have her support! I'd be rubbish in a pregnancy scare, I think I'd go to pieces, but she's strong and I'm so impressed with the way she's handling it. Sending you massive internet love, sweet, hope things work out the way you want them to!
S'laters!
Q x
You're so kind! Thanks. I really appreciate all the support I've been getting. Thankfully, as of now, it's a negative on the pregnancy. I'm still going to test myself but the sources are pretty legit.
ReplyDeleteOh, and I know what you're saying about Resident Evil 4. Milla Jovovich is one of my thinspirations. Along with Megan Fox, Taylor Momsen, and Emma Watson. Haha
Good luck on the liquid fast. <3
I know how tempting it is to leave things out, but I've found being honest on the blog- no matter how embarrassing, at least keeps you on track and accountable for your actions. Gives you something to think about before eating bad food anyway. Good on you for being honest!
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