... Mate, now my hunger would leave you amazed."(Courtesy of the lyrically-blessed Tinie Tempah... say hello to Uncle Festaaaaa.)
I'm starving right now. So, so hungry. Got back from the gym about half an hour ago and have witnessed M (female housemate) eat one of those MASSIVE Cadbury Dairy Milk bars and cookies in front of me, and D eat pasta with chicken. I've been sipping diet coke.
Ok, today wasn't fast day as I planned... when it comes to solid food, I ended up eating a chocolate bar (it was a brand new one from Cadbury - I was curious! Ended up making me feel sick - me and chocolate aren't good friends right now), a pastry thing from Greggs (attempting to fend off the sick feeling - wish it hadn't been quite so calorific!) and an apple at some point. Right now I'm struggling against the urge to run into the kitchen and eat everything in sight, especially after M took me food shopping and I now feel a bit more like a proper person, with plenty of food to choose from and make.
At least I have about 6 cans of soup.
Is it bad that M is sort-of becoming reverse thinspo to me? Not in the way she looks, oh no, not at all! But in the way she eats. She's constantly saying "I'm such a pig" and, well... it's starting to seem more and more true. I know she loves chocolate and sweet things but the AMOUNT she eats is borderline ridiculous. I don't think I've ever witnessed anyone eat so much chocolate in one day. If she didn't go to the gym, I'm convinced she'd be tackling obesity... though I guess she may have a high metabolism.
Who am I to judge? At least she's happy and comfortable. She's not starving herself to death trying to achieve perfection. She should be a bloody inspiration to me for GOOD reasons.
On a better note, I wore a high-waisted skirt today, and it was too big in the waist department. It was a size 10. Score! I think I have about a 28-inch waist so how this makes sense is beyond me... but ah well. I've decided that all my clothes swamp me or make me feel bulky, so I'm going to start buying size 8 clothes from now on, me thinks. If I can get them on!
I really want to chat to Ricky tomorrow and see a difference. Just one pound. Anything. I don't even know if it's possible to lose a pound in a day but I'm getting desperate. If I don't see some change soon, I'm close to losing all hope.
Stay with me and keep me strong, oh 3 followers who make this worth writing! I love you all and want us ALL to succeed. Let's do this!
Q x
Id love for us all to succeed as well! Trust me, if you keep doing well with your diet and excercise, all of a sudden the weight will melt off.
ReplyDeletegood work for not letting all that food in front of your nose trigger some massive binge! i know you can do it xx
ReplyDeleteCongrats on being too small for your size 10's- I'd kill to be your size right now! Don't feel bad about using M as reverse thinspo, I do it all the time- especially listening to people eat gross food.
ReplyDelete& Ricky's just teasing you- trying to veer you off your path, Stay strong! We can all do this! xxx