Oh, she's ranting again!

I went window shopping today. Walked into Topshop and picked out 2 tops, a tight dress and a skirt, all size 8. Just to see if I could fit into them. All fit (though the dress was a bit snug). HOORAH.

I can't wait until I'm skinny and can look good in everything. I'm so obsessed with clothes. I'm thrilled at the idea of maybe officially being a size 8... that's one size away from my goal, size 6!

On another note, aaarrrrrrrghhhhhh.

Been so defensive about the body fat percentage thing. Asked M if she was in range and she said she was. M, who'll eat 2000 calories worth of chocolate in one sitting just when she's feeling peckish. Compared to me, starving myself. I'm the fatter one. I'm depressed.

Everyone at this gym was fine with the body fat thing. I wasn't. I am, technically, the fat one of the house.

Bahhh.

My self control's getting amazing, though. The amount of times I've been around people eating fat, greasy food whilst I'm hungry and they are happily offering it to me (perhaps even bringing me a plate) is getting ridiculous. I'm constantly refusing. Boy is terrible - he bought me all my drinks last night ("it's fine, you can get the next round"), ordered a hell of a lot of food with his housemate whilst we watched the film and was so happily expecting me to help myself without even chipping in... what? Stop being so generous! M and housemate A (if you remember him - best boy mate) got fish and chips and M offered to buy me some but I had to refuse.

I've also gotten into a weird habit of not eating past 4pm... I'm curious as to how this will affect my weight loss (I remember reading an article aaages ago with some celebrity who stopped eating after 5pm and claimed "the weight just fell off") - I guess I'll find out tomorrow. WEIGH DAYYY. I know it's bloody unhealthy, though, so I don't endorse it, even if it has helped things along. Gym man told me I need to be eating 5 times a day. Ha, I can barely manage twice without feeling guilty!

Over and out!

Q x