Ricky's back, via my friend's scales. He's not in a good mood. I've put on a pound. 9 stone 7. I don't understand. I've been eating SO MUCH LESS and exercising my life away - how the hell can I have put on weight?? I physically feel sick. I never want to eat again.I'm so close to tears. It's 2 in the morning and I came back early from clubbing (sigh, that's right, I went out in the end - but no massive drunkenness!) and the house is quiet and I want to throw up. I want to throw up all of the fat on my body. Is that possible?
I'd better lock the door before the others come home and Housemate's creepy friend turns up... this bloke seems to seriously fancy me or something. He freaks me out - a LOT. The last time we went clubbing he was stroking my hand suggestively... so I went to pull away and he CLUNG ON. What in the hell? Tonight he was acting all weird so I was like "oh let's have a hug!" or something and I hugged him (I hug a lot of people) and then he went "I want to kiss you on the mouth." so I went "err, where are my friends!" and ran away. The thought of kissing him on the mouth... VOM VOM VOM.
Ew, Housemate's creepy friend. He keeps popping back up. I'm going to call him HCF for short. Shoo, HCF.
Anyway, I'm going to bed now. I don't even know why I posted. I just wanted somewhere to vent... and now I feel like I want to go and cry.
Why is this so hard?
Q x
lol at the HCF. in aus that stands for Health Cover Fund....not so much healthy about housemate's creepy friend! xx
ReplyDeleteSo many things can influence weight, try not to pull your hair out. I think the main point is you weighed yourself on ricky the second- different scales, different surfaces can yield different results. You could have been wearing different clothes? could have drunk lots of water? had a big meal? not been to the loo yet? ttom/hormones? too much exercise and not enough water can lead to gains too... there's so many factors one little number can be affected by. If you've been exercising and eating little I'm sure it's one of these things and not a fat gain. Stay strong, you can do this!
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