(Title is a quote from The Simpsons episode I watched today. Thought it was funny. And relates to how I'm feeling - beach whale, eh!)Today has been a day of highs and lows.
It started off normally. Sliced up an apple and made myself a cup of coffee for breakfast. Ate the apple, drank the coffee - but, halfway through, it started to taste funny. The flavour sort-of vanished. I chucked it, and figured it might have been bad milk - though the milk didn't smell bad. It was right at the end of a carton anyway, so I chucked the milk too. Felt horribly sick from that bad cup.
Except the sick feeling didn't go away, not for a while. I ended up eating a handful of cornflakes to try and get the taste out of my mouth. Sick feeling persisted. I started to figure maybe the coffee was fine, but maybe I was getting ill. When me and M went walking around in the bitter Northern winds, she remarked that I was sniffing and sneezing a lot. Argh, early Freshers Flu!
Got back and had some soup. Man, that soup was NICE. Ham and sweetcorn or something like that. Had that at about 4pm. Sick feeling went away for a while.
Few hours later, went to the gym. Got to 22 minutes straight running on the treadmill... an accomplishment for me, woo! Set me on such a high. Embarrassing, though - housemate Z and HotGuns were there and I was dreading HotGuns spotting me sprinting away all smelly and sweaty, but he did spot me and rushed right up, stuck his mouth by my ear and was shouting "Come on! Go! Go!" in a joky way. Ahahah... GOAWAYILOOKGROSS.
After the gym we went to the sauna, and I found it more uncomfortable than last time. When I got out, I nearly passed out. Had to lie down for a while on a side bench. I guess this might've been because of lack of food? I've decided from now on I'm going to eat something like a cereal bar (little kick of energy) to keep me going... though I didn't have any problems whilst working out, nor immediately afterwards; it was only after the sauna, weirdly.
Anyway, now I feel sick. I'm hungry, but the thought of food makes me feel sick. That coffee-sick feeling from this morning has come back, ugh. Oh no, go away, flu! Don't let it be that!
I'm sure I'll be over it in the morning. I've got my first Personal Trainer session on Friday - it better be over by then.
So, in all, I feel good because I feel like I've eaten hardly anything today and worked out properly. But I also feel like chucking up my guts. Hey ho!
Thanks sooo much for the supportive comments on the other post... I re-read it and thought to myself, ugh, nice one Q, way to over-react! You guys were great though, as sympathetic as ever. I really do appreciate how loving and supportive this community is! I really feel like we have each other's backs, which is so refreshing in a group of predominantly girls - from my experience, at least!
Watched BNTM this morning... my gawdddd, they're all SO tall and SO glamourous and SO thin. Really really good thinspo. They're currently in Malaysia and I'm half-Malaysian, so it was really special seeing them appreciate the beauty of the country and the culture. I know America's Next Top Model did a thing where they opened it to women who were 5 ft. 7 and under, and I have this stupid fantasy that if I got skinny and BNTM wanted to follow suit, I'd be able to audition... the girl who won the last series supposedly looks a lot like me facially (I don't see it, but hey) so I have faith in my facial features. I just don't have the body!
Haha, stupid thin fantasies. What's yours?
Q x
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