Why does food even have to exist?

Oh man, I ate past 3 o' clock. I was on the right track then my friends insisted we go to Greggs. Oh, Greggs. You are devient, you are. Ever had a sausage, bean and cheese pasty from Greggs? Heaven has touched my mouth.

Bugger you, Greggs.

It was maybe half 4 when I ate...?

Craperooni.

That whole bloody body fat thing came up again, from the gym, if you remember. We were chilling in the living room and the boys were going on about girls being fat or not being fat, and they started joking around, saying a girl with over 7% body fat was gross. I didn't know they were joking, though, and started arguing in, then blurted out, "I'm 30%!" They said they were joking. But I bet they thought for a second, "christ, fat bitch."

The normal percentage for a girl is something like 20 - 25 %...? Ish? I AM fat. This I know. I just don't understand how I can be SO fat... at the time that was calculated, I was 9 stone 2 lbs and at the low end of the healthy BMI. These days, my legs are entirely muscle. And I was wearing size 8 - 10 clothes. Like, I dunno, that's still too big for me because I'm striving to be tiny, but that's not that big, is it? Is it? I don't even know any more!

Ah well, it's still TOO big. For me. For others it's fine, for others it might be small, but for me, it's too big.

Bloody hell, I'm getting all repetitive. That was about 2 months ago Q, get over it. Still, I wish I hadn't eaten anything today.

Oh, and you want to know something else? When I went home for a while, I came allllll the way back to uni (it's quite a trek - takes about a day of travelling) and realised I forgot my straighteners and make-up! Arghhh! My mum promised to post them to me, and she has, but because of the snow, the post isn't really running. F. my. life.

Boo hoo! Woe is me! Crank out the violins...

Q x