Wheat intolerant?

Been attempting to track down the bloating. Been getting it generally after I eat bread or pasta (from memory.) Does that mean I'm wheat intolerant? Or just that my digestive system doesn't agree with wheat that much?? I REALLY HOPE SO.

Went for a birthday lunch on Wednesday - the restaurant the birthday girl chose happened to be Pizza Express, which tends to only serve pizza, pasta and the odd salad. So, what does that leave for the wheat-avoiding self? Salad! Yes. And it wasn't even like I could cave and order a pizza or something instead, because I'd pay for it. Not just mentally, but bodily! The salad I chose did have a bit of bread on the side, and I ate that, and got bloated. So maybe it is a bread thing. HOORAY.

I bet most people would be pissed off to find out they couldn't eat bread or pasta as much as they used to. To me, it's heaven.

Ricky: "Aight, good news for ya, 9 stone 3."

THANKS RICK.

Funny, last time I weighed this low I felt so skinny all the time. I just looked in the mirror and felt good about myself. I put on size 8 clothes and felt good about how they could fit. Now I'm still sceptical about fitting into size TENS. I went out last night and it was such a melodrama getting ready because whatever I put on, I felt disgustingly fat in. Doesn't help that the friend I was going out with is gorgeous and skinny. But my legs did look good. I'll say that.

Ugh, I forgot being back home means B is SMOTHERING me all the time. She was so distraught at the fact she couldn't see me from Tuesday to Thursday (the horror), she demanded to 'steal' me on Friday. And she wants to do expensive things, like go to the cinema, which include expensive buses there and back (if my parents can't give me a lift, which I hate asking them for.) Plus, it's Christmas Eve. What if the family had nice family stuff planned? We might be having a nice meal, I don't know. I just hate having to spend pointless money. Just because SHE gets about £5000 free per year because she's poor and clever (bursary and scholarship combined), doesn't mean we all do. I have a £1000 overdraft and I'm currently sitting at about -£800. Yeah. She wants us to go on some mega holiday the summer of 2012 too, to Orlando in Florida - I really want to go to Harry Potter land but she wants to go to ALL the theme parks at Universal, and flights alone can go to £1000 each! I'll have finished uni then, I'll be chasing job prospects and be horribly in debt and she's expecting me to jet off to Florida. I wanted to save up to go travelling. But god forbid I tell her any of this as she's too sensitive. And she's still my best friend, and I still hate making people feel bad. I'm as pathetic as all. Sighhh.

I just hate having a best friend who thinks our friendship should be as nurtured and secluded as a relationship. I'm rapidly losing patience with it all. Without wanting to sound awful, I think she'll be one of the friends I'll drop over the years from lack of contact. I don't think I could have that hanging on me for my entire life.

Ok, done with ranting! Done with talking too. Kudos to you if you got through that, if anyone still reads this any more, I don't know. Nice to get it off my chest anyway!

Enjoy your evenings/mornings/whatever time of day it is in your part of the world...

Q x