I feel like poooo

Think it's the flu. Hey, that rhymes! Mother Dearest has it as well. She's been confined to bed all day, whilst I've been up and about, albeit groaning on the sofa and killing my time watching terrible, low-budget Christmas movies.

Not toooo sure if I stuck to the 400 cal day today... maybe? Ish? I'll admit - I picked at the leftovers from yesterday a bit. Picked at a bit of goose. Had a roast potato. Feel incredibly guilty. This illness has made me want to eat for strength, but at the same time, it's making me feel too sick for food. Those annoying food adverts that take over the telly near Christmas-time have only been making me feel queasy. Win win!

Still, I've picked, and the only proper food I've eaten today have been a 100 cal pot of Muller Rice and a couple of crackers with cheese. Oh, and some clementines. Desperate for the Vitamin C. My sister claims she warded off a cold in 2 days by drinking constantly and eating clementines like they were peanuts. Seeing as I normally have a cold for MONTHS whenever I'm unfortunate enough to get one (which is basically all the time), I'm all up for tips.

Plus, because Mum's in bed, she's leaving us to sort out our own food. So Dad's all "ooooh what shall we eat?" and I'm just "I'll sort myself out, Dad, I'm not feeling too great anyway." Eeeaasy.

Tomorrow I might be busy enough to avoid food successfully - maybe even get in the 200 calorie zone! I'm going Christmas shopping with my dad in the day (I know he'll insist on food, so I'll try to eat lightly and get all my calorie intake from that) and in the evening my friend is having a little post-birthday get-together at her house, so I'll tell my parents we're eating there. Then, when I get there, I'll say I've already eaten and am feeling a bit too queasy for snacks. Oh yes, PLAN.

I get bloated quite easily, so I'm going to do what a health article suggested and document what I eat and whenabouts my gut feels like it's doing the Tango. The article said "you could find you're intolerant to things like wheat or chocolate." Imagine! Oh no, I can't eat bread or chocolate any more, what a shame, this'll really hinder my weight loss efforts...! Ha. I think I might be a bit funny about wheat, to be honest. Every time I eat pasta or a lot of bread I get 'the carb aches' (stomach ache and headache - when I tell people, they find it hilarious.) So we'll see.

Had a look at those photos from the dance show a couple of weeks ago. Oh man, my body's WEIRD. You can tell how awful and disproportionate it is. My thighs and bum are fairly small, my shoulders and arms are fairly small, but the middle is just one big flabby mess. It looked disgusting. Talk about thinspo! I've got the pics on my pc, so I'll look at them whenever I need a bit of motivation!

Speak tomorrow,

Q x