Seriously?

So B's on a MEGA diet, eating like, 500 calories a day max. And for some weird reason, it pisses. me. off.

Restricting is MY thing. Does that sound stupid?? It does. But I don't care. I've always felt like I had the slight edge over her because I was capable of restricting, when a lot of people aren't. Obviously we, here, all are, because we've got that drive. But now she's just come into it. Ugh.

And she's BRAGGING about it. The whole point is you DON'T TELL ANYONE. Hence the extreme anonymity on this blog! How she can do it at home in front of her parents is beyond me. And she's going on about the fact she's losing a pound a day. I'm sorry, but doesn't losing a pound of fat require burning 3500 calories? Is she really working out that much? Weight fluctuates all the time. You should weigh yourself once a week, minimum, to get an accurate reading. She's being blissfully oblivious and acting like she's better than me because she's doing this hardcore dieting.

ANGRY BITTER ANGRY BLAARGH.

She doesn't look any thinner. She still has bad hair. And bad dress sense.

We went to the cinema, and you know when you're dieting, you look at people stuffing their faces and you think, ew? Well, this had an opposite effect on me. I was determined to stuff my face in front of her. While she snacked on strawberries I bought mini chocolate biscuits, and ate them happily. It's like I was trying to say... look at me, stuffing my face, and I'm still skinnier than you, I still have good dress sense and nice hair and all that. I haven't put on any weight.

I don't want to be around her now. Her dieting DOES make me feel a bit guilty. Plus... it's just boring to have a social time with someone who's just bragging about restricting. Be secretive about it, fair enough. But don't rub it in my face.

OMG people dieting turns me into a HORRIBLE person. But I think you all know this.

It's not even that, really. I don't mind when my friends diet - I support them. I've always felt competitive with B, but I've still supported her dieting (generally). But now she's restricting? And happily chatting about her yoghurt for breakfast and her plain salad for dinner? How can you boast about that?

Blaaaaaaaargh.

I think I've written this exact post before. I'm repeating myself.

I'll shut up now.

I'm 3 followers away from 100, and that's pretty exciting. I still remember the little thrill I got when I saw 1 person was following my blog! I still love the idea of people reading my words and thinking I'm funny, or whatever, or interesting, or basically worth following for whatever reason. Plus, this is probably the nicest community of people I've ever encountered. People have such stigma around girls who support each other to get skinny, but it's probably the nicest group of people online.

Peace out. Sorry for the rant.

Q x