Happyyyy

So the London glossy mag experience was AMAZING. I've always known that I wanted to go into publishing/the media, but I'm even more passionate about it more now. It was my scene. I felt like I belonged and I was with common-minded people. And it was fun and gossipy! Can't complain.

Because of all that, I'm feeling super happy right now. I'm feeling much happier with work, I'm excited for the rest of Summer, I'm looking forward to my next year at uni... it's all going well. I'm not super thin, but I'm ok with that right now. I've got so much to concentrate on, I'll be overwhelmed if I force myself to concentrate on my weight as well!

Ricky hasn't even been tempting me, and I feel happy about that too.

Wooopeee!

I'm going out tomorrow night - the first time I've been out in AGES. Over a month, I think. I am, for the first time, attempting fake tan. Not permanent fake tan, but this wash-off stuff - in fact, I think it's called shimmer. It's not even really tan. Which is good, as it's meant to rain tomorrow and I don't want it all to run down my legs and look horrendous. If there's one thing I find physically disgusting on girls, it's streaky fake tan. Pet peeve.

I am brown already (I'm mixed-race) but I'm just a little tired of looking pasty in photos. Flash really bleaches me out and I want to glow a bit! So I'm taking the plunge. I'm not even sure whether to wear heels or not as I went to London in new wedges and after a day of walking around, my feet have been TORTURED. It seems cruel to put them through pain again... but it might have to happen for the sake of looking good! I'll give them a good massage tonight...

Ha, remember I told you ages ago about that boy I fancied, E? And I'm not sure if he has a girlfriend or not? I was lunching with M yesterday and she said 'I'm pretty sure he does. I saw him with a girl in the library. She was UGLY though.' and I said 'aw, why! He's so pretty! Oh, E, get rid of Ugly Girl and go out with ME!' and M went 'aw! You'd make such a cute couple.'

YES. YES WE WOULD. :(

God dammit, I NEED to find out if he has a girlfriend or not. And going with a girl to the library doesn't seem boyfriend/girlfriend stuff to me. Unless they were snuggling in there? But if she's ugly... he's so attractive! God dammit. And I've always assumed it was a girlfriend from home. I would've thought it'd be far more obvious if it's a girlfriend at uni.

Sorry, sorry, this is boring stuff. Enough of it all, I say!

See yaaa,

Q x

P.S. Little Miss Thin - Dirty Sexy Things is on E4, if you live in the UK. Mondays at 10. If not, I'm pretty sure it'll be on the internet somewhere. Full episodes are broadcasted on 4OD, though I don't know if that caters for outside the UK. If it doesn't, a quick Google search could find you a good link.