Sorry I haven't been posting much recently. I'll be honest with you. I still come on Blogger, read blog posts and look at pictures, but I don't post because I feel so GUILTY. I can't get over how much I'm eating at the mo. It's disgusting. I've generally been feeling reeeally unattractive since Spain. I'm fat. Fat fat fat. Ricky might not say so (I stepped on the other day and he said 9 stone 5, which isn't TOO bad, though it's not the 9 stone 1 I want to see) but I feel it. I can see it all the time. The Spain photos are horrendous! I look awful in all of them (though, to be fair, I was pretty drunk in most.) My skin looks bad. My teeth look HORRID. I had some minor dental surgery recently and my dentist told me to use this mouthwash to help my gums restore themselves after the surgery, and the side effect of the mouthwash is stained teeth. Ugh. They look horrible.I have no love for my face any more. I've gone off the idea that I'm pretty and decided I'm just a bit weird looking. It's so weird and frustrating, as you know everyone has a good side? My good side makes me look like a normal girl, but my bad side is just - I look bizarre! I have a really strange and horrendous face.
My my, what a woe-is-me post! Let's get on to better notes.
Getting the hair done tomorrow, hopefully. Could be amazing, could be disastrous. My hairdressers said they've never done anything like a dip-dye before, so my hair would require them to flex a whole new technique. That's ok, though, at least that means we can work on the look together and it won't be just let-us-do-your-hair-then-you-have-to-live-with-it-afterwards. 'Naa mean?
I MISS THE GYM.
I miss my thin self.
She'll be baaaack! (Read that in a Terminator-style voice)
Q x
P.S. Has anyone seen 'The Room'? It's this really REALLY bad movie that's become something of a cult film for being so bad it's good (i.e. hilarious.) If you haven't seen it, check it out. Though be prepared to be tempted to face the same fate as the protagonist by the end of the film.
quit hating on yourself. There's no need for that kind of talk. I bet you have a cute face (:
ReplyDeleteit's okay hon, everyone has bad times where they just feel ugly and awful, but it'll pass! and for what it's worth, I think you're beautiful! chin up, RaeLynn
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