Return of Ricky.

Err, hi, Ricky...

"Sup, bitch? Long time... all that drinkin' is messin' you up, bloody alcoholic. Still, got good news for ya..."

9 stone 2 lbs. I hadn't even used the loo yet. THANKS RICK. It's only a 2 lb loss... but that's 2 lbs closer to the 8 stone boundary!

Had the most mellow day of my life. After the gym (which was crap - could only do about half an hour cardio, bloody Freshers Flu) I've just been chilling in my room with the lights turned down, working on my novel a bit, listening to the likes of Mumford & Sons, Florence & the Machine, The Temper Trap, Regina Spektor, Doves, Feist, all that... oh mate, so chilled. Perfect way to spend a Sunday.

Sadly, the food hasn't been great. I had a small bowl of branflakes for breakfast (95 cal) and a wee bit of pasta for lunch (I'd average it to about 200 cal), but I got a bit happy with the tinned salmon + mayo on toast in the afternoon. Ever had that? Sounds bizarre, but actually tastes pretty good. In a crappy student meal kinda way. I had about 3 slices of that... I can only pray it wasn't over 350 cals, but I'm pretty sure it was. Hello again, gym.

It's nice having a 650 cal allowance on the weekend... but the week starts again tomorrow, and I am not looking forward to Tuesday! It was definitely the most difficult day of last week, as my other SGD girls might have experienced too, so I'll just have to stare at thinspo pics and blog whenever I find the time to stay motivated.

I hope it's going well for all the others too! And I hope all my followers' lives are peachy. I've been feeling quite optimistic today, actually. If my experience with Boy taught me anything, it's that if I want a boy, I have to make the effort to get him. And whilst this fling didn't go well due to extra emotional baggage, maybe the next one won't have that setback. At least I know blokes are willing to give it a try. Boy had a lot of girls on him, but he gave it a shot with me... maybe he saw potential. Characteristics in me that he thought he might be able to love. Sadly, he was still hurting far too much from his last relationship, but it doesn't change the fact those characteristics were there. So it's a self-esteem boost, sort of. Other people might see those characteristics and WILL be able to love them. They'll be able to love me. My 2010 resolution was to be much more open with guys... and it's been a success so far. The right one will come along, maybe sooner than I think.

Chin up!

Q x