'Some days I don't eat nuffing - fasting.'

I'm gonna try and not eat today. I was meant to be 200-ing it yesterday but I sort of caved and had a burger. Doh. It's getting easier, though, this not eating. When I ate that burger, I wasn't even hungry. I ate it because M was there and, I dunno, I felt stupid. I don't know why I ate it. I didn't need to! And that feels amazing.

So today, I'm going to survive on coffee and water. Well, blackcurrant squash. I prefer it to water, and it's only got about 7 calories per massive bottle, so in one glass it would probably have about a tenth of a calorie, and I think I can handle that. Also, er, alcohol, in the evening. It's a massive night tonight, the big Aftershow party after our dance show which ends the year. Loads of awards get given out and I get to make a speech. I better start preparing, ooer.

There'll be food being served... but it's a buffet, I can hold off. The other night I went to another Awards ceremony and there was a buffet, and I ignored it. I feel like I don't need food any more. I've been watching Supersize vs. Superskinny, and I can always relate so much to the Superskinny ones - they just don't care about food. They just have no interest. It's one reason why I suck at living on my own, why I suck at going food shopping, because I just stare around, bored and confused, and then just go home with nothing. Even when I shop hungry! Bizaaaarree.

I haven't weighed myself in a while. Last time I did Rick was horribly cruel, and said something like 9 and a half stone, so I'm holding off for a bit until I LOOK a bit skinnier, then I don't have to be so scared. Maybe I'll try tomorrow after liquid fasting today.

Can't be arsed for food. Can't be arsed for life! I've been so busy meaning I've done horribly little work/revision. Tomorrow I'm hoping to get an entire Creative Writing piece done. I need to force myself to do it!

Au-revoir,

Q x