Relief!

I stepped on Rickster this morning with some trepidation - but he said 9 stone 6, which sounds pretty normal to me. Cripes! I nearly passed out with relief. I'm starting to wonder if that was some EXTREME water retention last night... I heard somewhere that water retention can sometimes affect your weight by like, 20 pounds? But still, I've never seen that on the scales before and I don't wish to revisit it. I'm never getting on the scales again unless it's morning and I've just gone to the loo.

Thanks for the supportive comments gang! Always appreciated, a lot.

Despite the more normal scales, I've still intended to head for as low as possible today. 300 seems a bit hard to manage with my mum hovering out constantly feeding me, but I'm trying. I ate a small brekkie (about 100 cals) but ate a cookie for lunch, doh, as it was the only thing I had at work. I don't know how many calories one is but I've avoided eating after that, and as for dinner tonight, I'll just aim to chew on as little as possible. And I'm about to crack out the exercise. If I work hard this summer, I might just see the glories of 8 stone something on the scales! Ah, the dream...

SDR2, we're on!

Did anyone see Bey at Glastonbury last night? It might not have been on tv in other countries, but I watched it live on BBC and jesus, that woman is a goddess. I don't think there's ever been a pop star I've appreciated more, with the looks, the voice, the dancing skills and the sheer performance skills all rolled into one. I love that she throws everything into every performance and seems to be so flawless, yet humble at the same time. I've never wanted to be Beyonce more, especially right now, on the aftermath of the biggest gig of her life. That's saying something as I've wanted to be her for about 12 years now. Facebook and the internet has been going mad with reviews and admiration this morning. I wanted to get tickets to Glasto 2012 (prepared to start saving up now), but because of the stupid Olympics, it's not on! And god knows where I'll be in 2013... well, goddammit, I might not be as young and reckless and festival-ready in 2013 but I'll still be 21 (and hopefully have a decent job) and those tickets are mine!

Oh my god, I've discovered the wonders of Photoshop. After a quick tutorial from a friend, I've worked out how to make yourself look perfect - and MUCH skinner - after a few clicks. Depressing as hell, especially when you 'skinny' yourself then look at the original photo. But still... goodbye, fat rolls in photos!

Leavin' but lovin',

Q x