Wahey!

NEW LAPTOP BACK TO BLOGGING GETTING THIN AGAIN YES YES YES!

Earlier than I said. What a cheeky surprise for you all.

... I'll have to ruin that surprise though by saying that after tomorrow night, I'm nipping home for the weekend so won't be writing again until Tuesday night... and then after that, probably Thursday evening. I won't bore you with the details. But let's say I won't have my pics back until that Thursday evening as well (booo.)

I'll try to get back to writing as regularly as I can. I NEED this blogging. Oh mate, I've really fallen off the wagon without it. You want to know my current weight? You don't. Let's just say I've actually reached 9 stone 9 (!) without this blogging... and without the effort. I think I'm swinging aruond 9 stone 6 at the mo. Looking at that little bit in the corner and seeing 'CW: 9 stone 2 lbs' makes me nostalgic.

No worries, I'll get back there. Though today was NOT a good example. My parents came up to my uni and insist on taking me out for about a million pieces of food - my mum took me shopping and I was having such a fat hormonal day (meaning all the clothes looked rubbish) that I burst into tears and said I was too fat and didn't want to eat again. Luckily she's pretty chilled about that so panic bells weren't ringing, she just assured me my blood sugar was low and I was feeling down and made me eat a sandwich. Then we went out for dinner in the evening... alright, bangers and mash are amazing (that's sausages and mash for any non-Brits) but probably not particularly low-fat. Bahh.

Tomorrow... it's back on. I don't deserve to eat like I'm thin or something. I'm already stupidly frustrated that my weight seems to fluctuate SO much if I don't have COMPLETE control over what I eat. Does anyone else get that?? I swear, one day I'll eat, say, 800 calories, yet if the next day I eat 900 calories, I'll have put on about 3 lbs. What's up with that? I read once that a pound is equivalent to 3500 calories. How does eating 100 calories more (and still way less than what I burn in a day) mean I put the equivalent of 3 x 3500 calories on?

Bloody weight. So unreliable.

I'll probably have to get breakfast with the parents tomorrow, but I suppose it's better to eat a lot earlier in the day than later in the day. I'm introducing the whole no-eating-after-3pm for a while, until I get back to 9 stone 2 lbs, at least. Annoyingly I'm going to visit my sister over the weekend (hence the lack of blogging) but I'll do my best to stay as low-food as possible. Luckily she's a poor student too so there won't be many fancy nights at restaurants, though she's actually got a job (lucky bitch.)

Apart from all that, my life... is busy. That's all I can say. Lots to do, all the time. Nothing really interesting going on. No love life, shame. Starting to wonder if I'll ever get a PROPER love life... like a relationship. Is that even possible for me?

Alright, I'm out. Ta-ra!

Q x